Continuation of the Steps

Ok Step 7...humbly asked him to remove our shortcomings...key word here is humbly, if i can't be humble then i still am into myself...

step 8...made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willling to make amends to them all. Wow!!! First of all i have heard all around the tables to put myself FIRST on that list...Because i have hurt myself more than anyone else...Then of course others belong on the list. This step is only asking me to do one thing, make a list.. that is all.

step 9...made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others...making direct amends to some people is easier than others... some people just saying i am sorry is not enough, i have learned that to change my behavior is making amends...instead of just saying i am sorry and then doing the bad behavior again, is not enough, i need to change my behavior to make the amends...

step 10, continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it... i take inventory every night, so that if i need to make amends the next day, i will know, taking inventory of my positives is important also, because that is what i will be building myself on...not always focusing on what is wrong with me...

step 11 sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of his will for us and the power to carry that out...praying for knowledge of his will for me... Wow again..i use to pray as a child, please God if you do this for me, i will be good, if i get an A on that test, i will go to church 2 weeks in a row.. I never knew to pray for knowledge of his will for me and then i have to pray for the power to carry that will out.. Sometimes what is God's will, isn't Kelly's will and i need that power to carry that out...

step 12 having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to others, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
We tried to carry this message, it doesn't say i have to force people to go to Al Anon, it says i try to carry this message, sometimes carrying it is in my behavior and attitude as much as my informing other people of the existence of Al Anon, most people have never heard of it or if they have, they think it is for the alcoholic.


i posted a book on this site, From survival to Recovery, growing up in an alcoholic home.. It is a good book, it actually is my husband, but i have read it also. I have it listed in my ebay store, my store is kellyscreativeideas..If you are interested, I also have several more al anon books in my store...

Some time i will post my story, i have never told my story, you know, i am nervous about that, but maybe if i post it here, i won't be so nervous...